Being so idle makes my mind race with no end in sight. Constantly second guessing every step, every word, every movement- straining myself and all the ones around me. “I’m sorry” has never left my mouth so many times and my anxious thoughts put all around me on edge. I need to calm down and trust the words and actions of my loved ones. The 17th will mark the fifth anniversary of my father’s passing, and this time of year always has such violent highs and lows for me. But soon the snow will melt, and I will be reborn, again in the Spring sunlight. I am so lucky and thankful for everything that has happened to me in the past 4 months and for the people I love, who somehow put up with me and my emotions. I’m a big guy with a heavy heart, but with a new job and school resuming, I will find my rhythm and confidence once again. I will be able to watch my love sleep without guessing her dreams.
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